Day 7 - Complete!!!

Yay!! I'm so proud! I haven't stuck to this much of a workout routine in years!! I've worked out but I usually have some sort of good reason why to take a day or two or three off every week. But not anymore!! No more excuses! Just my feet to the pavement! I am on my way to running my first half marathon....eventually! :) I completed 7 days straight of running 2+ miles a day. Well, its really a walk fast/run but either way I'm happy. I'm not stopping here either. Its going to be 14 days in a row and then maybe one day off. I may love it so much by then I won't want a break....cough cough. That's total sarcasim in case you couldn't read that! My goal this week is to run more distance than I walk. I would like to be able to run a mile non stop, but that may be too far of a reach for this week. I'm going to push myself towards that goal, then I will increase the distance! I've all ready done a couple of days at 3 miles so I'm looking to stay between 2 and 3 this week with running at least 1.5 of it non stop! Here I go peeps...........continue with those feet to the pavement!!

Feet to the pavement

Wow! So its been so long I all most forgot I have a blog! I have decided to start over with this whole blogging thing and take a new direction. So today is different.......and new!! Its been well over a year since I've written on here and basically life is still the same for me. I'm still a SAHWM (stay at home working mom), I'm still stressed, I still feel one step behind most days, and I still wouldn't trade my crazy life for anything. What is new is my attitude. Its been a rough ride for....too many years. I have been down and out. More than I ever lead on to anyone close to me, besides my poor husband who gets to bear the wrath of it all. I am in my mid 30s and feel like I've been going through some sort of mid life crisis. I have been on the verge for a year now and I vow that it will not be like this anymore. I need change. I need confidence!! A major issue in my life has always been my weight. I have never in my life loved my body. I am realizing the older I get how big of a problem this is. It really does affect my everyday life, more than I knew! Most recently in the past year my best friend asked me to be in her wedding. I was completely honored, and a little horrified. I...ME...put my fat ass up in front of 100+ people and have them staring at my back side. Yikes! But of course I wanted to be up there with her, what an honor! As the months went by there were many complications between her and I. And now that the friendship has ended I often wonder if I did this because I couldn't stand the idea of being up in front of all those people? Did my insecurities really cause me to end a friendship because I couldn't get in a dress in front of people? I honestly believe it is one reason why I quit on her....which in turn meant ending our friendship. :( So it is what it is....and for the record the horrible things she said. I wouldn't take that friend back in a million years. But what I will do is recognize the things going on inside of me and learn to deal with them. I need more self confidence. At this point it is a must change attitude!!! So....I've began my journey. My first goal in my self awareness is action. So its feet to the pavement, time to loose this weight and learn to change! I've finished 3 days so far of running and I'm not stopping. My first goal is to run 2 miles everyday for 14 days! After tonight 10 more to go!! Yay!! So wish me luck and follow my journey if you will!! This fat girl is on a mission to not be the fat girl anymore!!!!